What led me from the pain of the past to today is a “reinvention.” The way I had been living was hardly “living”…getting up and facing each day unenthusiastically. Waking up tired and worn out, even before getting out of bed. The relationship with my then husband was non-existent. We barely looked at each other, let alone touched each other. Life seemed to be wrapped up in the kids and the busyness, letting what really mattered get put on the back burner with a falsehood that it was okay and it wasn’t important. The worst part was no one knew the secret because to the outside world, it looked like I had it ALL! But, it was a life with no PASSION!
Thankfully, the pills were knocked out of my hand and the voice I heard screamed at me to go get help so I could help others. When you get an order like that, you pay attention. I bless that moment all the time, because it was in that moment I decided “I NEED HELP. I AM CHANGING MY LIFE!”
I reached out for help and began to work on ME. That’s when it happened. My re-invention. I delved so deeply into me and asked myself some very tough questions. That is when the journey of self-discovery began.
What I learned is that I did not love myself, not truly. I didn’t value myself. I didn’t think I was worthy of the things I wanted in my heart, and so I stopped asking for them or expecting them. I began to discover just how valuable I am and how worthy I am of everything my heart desires.
I learned that my journey up until that point was FILLED with lessons of clarity and desires. I could not be where I am now had I not experienced the darkness. I learned the power of forgiveness, and that forgiveness starts with SELF first! But, the biggest lesson I learned is that I am the one responsible for me, for loving me, accepting me, nurturing me, forgiving me, completing me. I decide how I feel. I decide how I live. I decide what I want. I am the one who is in control of my life.
I also learned I was not alone in my darkness. Many women suffer the same loneliness, unacceptance and lack of self-worth that I did. We all need to take back our control of ourselves!
You can take back control of your life, too! If you’re living with any of these experiences, you need to gain back control of your life. It starts with living your life INTENTIONALLY, in the present moment, being focused on how you want to feel and what you want, you are capable of having it all and you should! When you live in gratitude, intentionally, in the present moment, you are living your life on purpose, and you are unstoppable. It’s so much easier than you think. It starts with your mindset, your emotions and your language. That’s where I work with my clients first. You get those three areas in check, you are unstoppable!